It’s interesting to me how much my running personality mimics my social personality. I’m conservative (NOT a Republican) and very guarded. It’s something I’ve been working on with running for sure and trying to in my personal life … funny how the two are so closely related in many ways.
For running it was to emotionally invest and commit to my training, which I’ve been trying to do since September. It sounds simple enough but you have to realize that my entire training till now has been within what I think I’m capable of at that time, and not pushing it. And I pretty much rationalize away anything so I can convince myself I don’t care if I don’t perform well. For example the workout this Thursday is something I don’t think I would have ever done when I was in the performance project a few years ago. I was running at a 6:00 min per mile pace which is way faster than my current 3 hour fitness. But it’s what I needed to do to get me out of my comfort zone and get pissed when I fail if I’m really going to reach my potential.
On the personal side I’m very similar, very guarded, don’t open up, take a long time to make friends … ok, maybe too much detail but it’s my blog so don’t read it if it bothers you 🙂 So on the running side it’s taking more risk by pushing myself beyond my comfort zone and on the personal side it’s taking more risk by being more open to people I know and meet. I guess it’s just one of those years for me where change is in the air … hopefully for the better.